I'm just chasing time again - James Blunt

It's a daily news of earthquakes here, typhoons there, floods here & there.
Not that it never exists before. Was earth ever in peace?

If you guys are kinda sick of me like recently blogging nothing but lovey dovey entries, the good news is we are gonna have something for a change.

Ask me again what is it that I can't stand or dislike about my boyfriend.
I have to tell you it is the same old problem I face. You know, about the part that he is always busy doing one thing or another and I am fuckingly sick of that but each lovely date just made me close one eye about it.

I am not an entirely unforgiving person and of cos' I have my fault.
He may have think of me 'bo tie bo ji' throwing a tantrum or just being that time of the month(NOT!) kinda mood swing.

But one seemly harmless photo I saw made me feel "grrrr" and I thought of who the hell he is at work and without me.

If I were you, I would thank my lucky stars that I ain't my boyfriend cos' once you stepped on my tails, I am sarcastically ruthless in my words, or so to say.

10/6/08 10.45pm
Jason "Wah...Wat a day...Run here run there like a rabbit...Now ending soon le..Gd night dear..Miss you...raining le cover up well"

Me "When you said 'miss you'. I wonder if its just a phrase or how much is the degree. Anyway rabbits dun run. Bleah!"

If you received a reply like this...it is almost easy to see that the crux of the msg lies not in the stupid rabbits part but the first part. Instead of getting a proper pacifying reply from him, all I get is..(much later) "Ok.hop!"

WTF.

11/6/08 9.19am
Jason "Eh dear, wake up...! U r late for work! Hehe.."

I take it as he has not even read my blog when he probably has the energy for the Euro cup matches late after work.

Me "No. I angry w you so purposely didn't call you."

Instead of following up on that, as much as I oddly expected, no reply for the whole of the day. Not even during lunch or perhaps peeing time.

After work, I can't stand it and purposely send another message all in the time of wanting more attention actually.

Me "You are definitely less apologetic and even more to my irking in terms of your habits than before.Well done."

You can tell how sarcastic I am right now. That msg was send on 6.29pm ,FYI.

11/6/08 7.19pm
Jason "Sorry dear...It's been a hectic week so far...Planning for a big purchase...so many meetings...hope ur week went well n not like mine..."

Me " If tats e case, you have hardly been thru a relaxed wk since day 1(and by day 1, I meant the start of our relationship) cos I m oddly accustomed to this kinda 'you in your working receptionless world'. Dint worry. Work hard and break a leg. No..you know that's just a phrase right. Learn waking up on your own or maybe mine never work in the first place. ;) "

Sarcasm multiplies ten folds.

11/6/08 7.33pm
Jason "It's really not abt waking up at ur morning call..It's hearing ur voice 1st thing in the morning...even if it meant I had to struggle out of bed earlier to get the call, my 'hello' baby"


Now my morning call was something that he actually struggled earlier outta bed and that is an effort? It might not mean exactly that way but it is actually underlining an effort that I should appreciate. (My foot!)
I called at 6.30am cos' there is one fine day he said he always cant wake up and told me that is the time he wakes up.

Anyway my reply goes like that.

Me "Ya...if you ever had the time to think abt how much i meant to you. y not spend the time whie you pee to think how much it might meant to me to spend just a lil more attention to me other than tat pathetic sat?y is it me who initiate most things and keep to it while yours nv last more than a month?u want me to account to u e many promises that 'because of this, i will make it up to you' or 'i know wat you want and i will try' etc you want me to relate the times i wondered what you are doing, y r u so busy that theres not even a msg for a day,let alone call? i dun even know why am i so happy over a stupid date gift (that rabbit that doesnt respond to solar) that would appear after i ask for it, if not almost never? and you know what jason?e good news is once i get bitter abt it, i will turn from sweet nothing to you f off kinda gal. well...its weird. isn't this ur working time? y do u have the time to reply?pay attention to your sales and your lovely colleagues."

And that is a 6 smses worth of sacarsm & anger.

Just as I expect well, he did not reply back.

You know about the theory that women should always make to men what they want cos' the men are too stupid (most time) to read the lines, to understand etc?
For my case, I brought up the case for numerous fuck I dont recall times in our 5 years worth of relationship through words, through whines, through tears, through cold war, through phone calls, through face to face and through you name it.

And why do I suddenly bo tie bo ji bring up this when probably a night ago, I am still ok?
Fuck, do I need a reason for that when this exists all along?

I never mention doesnt mean it is not there.

And ass...did you even msg to ask about hows my back, let alone hows my day?!

You and your work and your WORK AND your football, I HATE YOUs!

Do you even care,really?